Saturday, July 4, 2009

Oscar the Boxer


5 years to the day we brought you home, you were taken away. You were ours before we were even married. Before Sophie B. entered our lives and wrecked havoc on your world it was just us and our dog. Oscar the Boxer. How I loved to hate you. How at 9 months pregnant I came home to find that you had torn through the garbage. How you shredded an entire package of toilet paper and it looked as though a blizzard went through our house.  How you knew just how much you drove me crazy yet you were loyal to a fault. 
 I can remember bringing Sophie home from the hospital and how worried I was over how you would react. Would you be jealous? Mean? Depressed? Then I saw how much you loved her. How you would roll over and let her climb all over you. How you'd lick her from head to toe. How much she loved you. How much I starting loving you because of the way you loved her. 
I would always tell people how much easier my life would be without you. But now that you aren't here I realize just how big of a presence you were in our lives. It's so quite now. It feels as though there is a gaping hole in our family. Your place. Still held open. I walk around and pass your food bowls. Your bed. Your toys. Your collar. Your nose print on the windows. You were in every single part of our home. We can't yet put the bowls away. And I don't know how long your bed will stay at the bottom of our bed. 
I do know that one day this day would come. One day we'd walk into the house and you wouldn't be there. Rather it be because you were so old that you could no longer go up and down the steps or rather it be tragically, I always knew that one day you would no longer be with us. I'm not sure if there is an easier way. 
Time heals everything. I've told my self that countless times and I know that it's true.  But in the meantime, here we sit. Sophie keeps asking if you are coming home. And every time she does tears well up again. Steven looks totally empty. You were without a doubt his Little Buddy. 
You are and will be missed Oscar the Boxer. 




10 comments:

Elizabeth said...

very nice post. Poor Sophie. Nothing I can say will make it any better but you have all been in my thoughts since I found out about poor Oscar. Take care.

Anonymous said...

I'm so sorry. Animals are family and when they go there is a huge void.

Thinking of you.

Carrie S.

Neurotic Atty said...

I'm so sorry, Kim. I don't even know what to say beyond that.

alicia said...

Sorry to hear about oscar, what happend? I have a male that is 4 im lookn for a home for him free if your interested!! Let me know sorry alicia

Anonymous said...

We are sharing in your loss. We loved Oscar like he was our own dog. And what a good dog he was. He left so many hilarious memories though (pooping on pappap's bed, clogging up the lawn mower after eating dryer sheets, ripping into your uncook dinner that was thawing in the sink!) He will be sadly missed and never forgotten from our family. Our thoughts are with you all. Love you, Amy, Sean and kids

Jenny said...

We were so sorry to hear about Oscar on Friday. As I told you, although he will always be missed, it will get easier as time passes. He was a great dog and we will all miss him.

Anonymous said...

We are so sorry, there are just no words that help. we love all of you
G and PaPa

Paula said...

Oh Kim, I am not sure what happened but I am so sorry.

Katie said...

Now you're making me tear up. I remember when Oscar was a puppy, Maddie chasing him around when we were cleaning up from a yard sale since she didn't realize how much smaller she was than Oscar and him "playing" cornhole at your housewarming. I'm so sorry about Oscar, especially about the way things happened. At least you all have good memories of him and lots of pictures so Sophie can always remember.

Jonathan's Mommy said...

My heart goes out to you and your family. I am so sorry.